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Today started off brilliantly.  Woke up to the sounds of BANGBANG at the door.  I didnt bother getting up because the sun was still down.  Whoever the fuck that is can come back later.  And then the phone rang.  It was my sister demanding to be let in.  She'd come up from melbourne to visit for the new year etc.  I was furious mind since it was like 5am and I'd only been asleep 3hours.  One thing about me that everyone knows is that I totally and utterly detest my sister.  I do not speak to her unless I'm forced to.  I haven't spoken to her husband or his family in nearly 2 years and do not plan to change that.  If I could add my sister to that I'd be on cloud nine.  But no.  This will never happen while I still live at home since my parents are too frustratingly annoying to tell her to stay at a hotel when she visits.  They're also unhappy int he knowledge that when they both pass away that I will completely break contact with her and theres nothing they can do or say about it.  At least that much I have control of.

I don't get the whole shock people show me when they hear me talk about her like that.  If you know someone who you cannot stand, do you keep talking to them?  No.  Why exactly should family be any different?  Because its blood?  I'm expected to be miserable because of that bullshit rule?  People told me when I was younger that when I get older I'll see things differently and mature etc blahblah.  I'm now 35.  When exactly do I get to be allowed by everyone to do as I please?  Fuck that.  Few things upset me.  FEW.  She's one of them.  I cannot be in the same room with her for long before an argument starts up.  Whenever I visited Melbourne I would stay at her house with her husband.  This year I changed that.  I preferred to go to a hotel for a week then stay with them and save money.  I didn't even announce my intention of visiting there.  Apparently her husband is pretty upset I refuse to speak to him anymore.  Well too bad.  I have a rule.  You piss me off a fair amount of times, and I mean seriously fucking piss me off, and that's it.  Go find someone else to chat with. 

Theres no point in going into detail why I cant stand him anymore.  Lets just say they were talking about divorcing for a while (they're fine now supposedly but whatever), and I was basically their middle man with endless phone calls at 5-6am from one of them screaming to me to tell the other to see sense blahblahblah.  Well after 4months of this bullshit and me twitching every time the phone rang, it seriously started to affect me mentally, the very next phone call I got from them while they were having a massive argument at their house I hung up on them and called the police and had them go over stating spouse abuse.  I dont care that it was a lie, I just wanted them to understand they can royally fuck off forever.  I got the message across too.  After that blocked them both from msn, steam, email, what have you.  Got a new phone, refused to tell them my new number and told my parents on penalty of me moving out and leaving them to live alone for the rest of their life if they even hinted my new number to them.  I couldn't stand my sister since I was a kid, but she brings nothing but drama.  Just for reference, I LOVE helping people out as an unofficial counsellor and have always been told my advice is excellent since I'm great at listening, and I even got one guy who outright detested me to become a close friend.  With those two things in mind now realise how much I have to truly hate someone to not want to speak to them again, and those being related to me.

Ok that was a little bit much.  I felt like ranting.  I'd put up a poll asking how many of you hated someone in your family, but I don't know how to make polls and I'm also a bit lazy at bothering to figure it out.  So for now I'll just end things with something funny.  When I saw this screenshot I almost outright choked.  totally lol worthy.

Almost there

New years is just around the corner.  I'm hoping to evolve and gain some mutant powers.  I dont see it happening but I've got my fingers crossed, and everyone knows that if you cross your fingers you get +3 to your luck rating.

I've ginally started up Eternal Sonata, an rpg on the consoles.  Been meaning to play that for ages.  Its pretty good, which is rare for a japanese rpg lately.  Its also frustratingly hard.  Sub bosses kill me.  Like multiple times.  Right now I'm doing the old school levelling up for a few hours to try and beat this one bastard who rapes me something vicious.  Bit annoying since I've got too many games to play.  I dont want to waste it levelling up for hours and hours.  But the gameplay is really good.  Some very original things in the combat. 

STEAM has been having some amazing sales this week.  I've picked up a few games.  I've noticed todays sales has the Kings Bounty pack up.  Brilliant games, really dying for a sequel.  Hope they make one.  Too many good games around.  I'll have less time soon also if I get a job.  I've started applying for a few, focusing on going back into IT instead of government etc.  And finance can totally fuck off.  And with that I'll leave you an insight into video game development.

Merry christmas!

At least its christmas for me in Australia.  Please eat lots of cake!

Not the best

Today was just begging for it.  I went to bed around 2am feeling super duper tired which is rare, but I really dont know if I slept much.  I writhed and rolled about, body ignoring the fact that I was actually tired to begin with.  I think I might of gotten an hour sleep.  I say might because I was fully awake at 6am, and I had a dream, so you only really have a dream if you're sleeping.  And the dream was just..argh... I love nightmares right, I mean REALLY love them.  But this dream was like a wannabe nightmare.  It kept trying to be scary and it just wasnt, it was just totally stupid.  In my dream I actually got annoyed.  I got annoyed at MY dream while IN the dream because it was doing such a shit job at trying to scare me.  I woke up feeling annoyed.

Cancelled my cats vet trip.  His injury is heaps better and at the moment since I'm not working I cant really justify a third $150 trip.  I really cant.  My supplies are getting low and I think I'll have to start applying for jobs very soon.  At least my cats gettng heaps better.

Unfortunately I'm going to have to end this on a sad note.  I found out today that my grandfather died yesterday.  He was 84.  He'd also gone through 3 strokes and was pretty sick lately, so I'd already prepared myself.  Not many people can go through 3 strokes and still be able to walk.  He was tough as nails.  And I'm just really happy that I got to meet him last year when I visited greece after 25 years absence.  I spent plenty of time with him,listening to his stories and just joking around.  My grandmother said after I left he stopped joking around and just sat there quietly most of the days. My mum was planning to visit next year and I was thinking about going too.  I was hoping he'd make one more year.   I'll really miss him.

Screw it

I've realised after waking up at 8pm this time that I'm actually trying too hard to control my sleeping patterns. In actual fact I could snap myself out of it and within 2 days be waking up at 10am average. Most of the times I sleep in is mainly because I'm dreaming and I want to see how it pans out. I enjoy my dreams, especially when they're nightmares. So much damn fun. So I let them carry on till they dont go any more, or if someone wakes me up. I seriously fucking LOVE nightmares. And with my imagination I have some seriously messed up ones.

Right now its almost 6am. I dont expect to be sleeping till around 9am. But I need to be up before the post office closes because they left me a card saying I have a parcel to pick up. It was just typical that my parents decided to be away during the time the postman came by. I'm going to take a guess and say its those photos I had sent off to be printed. If they end up looking like I hope they do then I'm going to go all hardcore and improve some old photos my mum wanted me to fix of her and her family when she was younger. Like photos from 40-50 years ago. Should be entertaining.

My cats injury is healing real well. I expect in about a week it'll almost be gone. I still need to take him in this thursday for a follow up to make sure he continues healing. Theres some more money gone I dont really have. I think I'll get pizza today.

Ok lets see what pictures I can stick up... hmm... Ok heres a good one. It was an advert I saw on a page that just made me stop and blink. See if you can understand why.

I bring the spasticness

The other day was interesting.  Went to bed around 5am'ish, which is fairly standard.  Actually thats slightly early.  Normally I'd be out of bed around 1 since I'd just lie there lazily after waking up at 11.  But I woke up and looked at the clock and it said 7pm.  Confused me a little.  Maybe sleep caught up with me finally. 

Mums been enjoying the vacuum.  I vacuumed the carpet in her room and came away with quite a bit of crap.  She was all surprised because she'd just vacuumed it the day before with the other one we had.  Only then did she realise how godly it actually was.  I've also misplaced the receipt for it.  And this after the guy at the store said I looked intelligent enough to make a backup of it unlike others who lose things.  HEEHEE!  I'm thinking it might of fallen out of my pocket while I was getting it into the car.  Not sure.   Will probably clean up my desk today and see if its under one of my papers or such.

Managed to finally watch The Other Guys.  Not too bad a film.  I've also FINALLY started Carnivale.  I've been meaning to watch the series for years.  Its very different.  Very fantastical.  You cant think of it as normal reality because thats not how the show works.  I'm enjoying it after 4 episodes.  First ep I wasnt sure what to think about it.

Oh, also noticed a very awesome video for Rockstars new game, LA Niore.  It shows the technical side to how they made the facial animations and everything so lifelike.  Very awesome.  And its from an Australian studio too. 

Smart or not smart

You know what annoys me?  People who complain about their jobs, even though their jobs are very simple with huge doses of slacking off, and somehow think their lives suck so much because of it.  How about you quit it then?  Dont go to the comfy job you hate so much.  Oh whats that?  You need to support your weekly weekends of drinking out with friends at clubs?  THEN STFU!  Some of us dont actually get to work.  Noobs.

So FINALLY took my cat into the vet today for his second checkup.  He's doing pretty good, although his main injury is healing slowly as expected.  Thats about $320 in 2 weeks I've spent, and I have no job lol.  Good thing I saved up a bit since I saw my jobless state coming a month early.  I also spent a liiiiiiiiittle more then I should have on a vacuum for my mum.  $800 to be precise.  I had my thoughts pretty much on this specific Dyson which was around $700.  I didnt want to spend too much but you pretty much get what you pay for.  Buy cheap, dont expect to get the cat hair out of the carpet.  Its just simple logic.  I learned this lesson long ago when I mocked my friend for spending $500 on a set of headphones.  I mean seriously wtf?  I mean yeah it sounded pretty awesome but so do most headphones.  And then I went through a period of 6months where I wasnt happy with my current headphones, and bought about 3 other pairs trying to find a good one.  Then I realised after listening to a really good one, I couldnt just go out and buy $50-$80 crap.  The sound quality was like night and day.  So yeah, $400 headset and I was in sound orgasm mode.  I heard shit I NEVER heard with my other sets.  And it lasted me a good 6 years.  Technically still works, but replaced it anyway because the little cable attaching to the headphones gives off a little static when it comes.  ie every fucking time.  My fault for yanking it one too many times.

So anyway, after going to a few stores I went to one that focuses solely on vacuums and nothing else.  The guy had heaps of useful information and showed me some pretty awesome things.  He basically tossed some dirt onto the carpet and RUBBED it in really well with his shoes.  Then he grabbed then Miele one that cost about $1500 and sucked it all up.  He emptied the little container out and was like see?  It grabbed all that dirt I put down didnt it!  And I'm like YEAH DUDE.  And then he said NOW WATCH THIS!! and he picked up the Hoover Core Plus and started sucking at the carpet again.  This thing though has some sort of vibration thing in the carpet head, so while you're vacuuming you can set it to vibrate like mad.  This dislodges dirt and crap, and its their own patent technology so no other cleaner has it.  Anyway, he opened the little canister where all the crap goes in and I was shocked to see it had sucked up a cup full of dirt SOMEHOW.  And the dirt was really fine, like it had been crushed so often and hidden deep in it.  I asked him how it did with pet hair, and he tossed some wool and hair onto the carpet and BAM!  2 swipes over it and it was all gone.

So pretty much I bought it.  He gave me a little bit of a discount, so $800 all up with a 5 year warranty.  So I guess $50 off.  Its not that heavy, its easy to move around, and its not really really  REALLY loud like our previous vacuum. Heres a pic

Its not as big as it looks.  Its kinda smallish.  That cylander can be detatched and emptied. But yeah, I was completely impressed.  So merry christmas mum.   Even when I'm not working I'm still buying expensive gifts.  Someone shoot me.