A Breeding ground of sickness

Thats pretty much the best description I can give of my workplace.  Someone is always sick.  And not just 1 or 2.  Generally its a few.  And they are ALWAYS sick.  They stay sick for like 2-3 weeks.  When they get better, someone else has the sickness.   A couple weeks later?   You guessed it.  They're sick again.  In the almost 5 months I've been working there, everyone has been sick at least twice.  Me?  I've been managing to hold my own and not catch anything because I'm psychotic when it comes to cleanliness.  I have antibacterial wipes, hand wash, everything.  They touch something near me, wipe it down.

This week, my second last week there, everything changed.  I finally caught their diseases.  I rarely get sick.  My problem is my lack of sleep has helped me catch this.  I only get like 3-4 hours normally.  Its just how I am.  Now that I'm sick I'm waking up every hour or 2, so I'm getting even less.  All week I've felt it burn up in the evening, but the next day feel like its gone.  Today though was a whole different story.  Nose, throat, cough, all of it.  Absolutely pissed.  One of the girls at work asked me if I caught a cold off such and such.  I said no.  I've caught it off EVERYONE.  Obviously I'm not happy.

Tomorrow is friday, and I'm calling in sick because fuck it.  It'll be my first day off in 5 months compared to everyone there who have had 2-3 weeks off for sickness each.  Next weeks my last week.  And lets be honest.  Who the fuck am I even going to impress.  They're all on permanent contracts, spent large parts of the day just chatting away.  Meanwhile I'm doing my work and chatting little.  But thats just how it is.  This is how it always is for me.

I cant fucking do this

You know you go through things that arent good, and you get to a point where you're just numb to them and expect them to happen and just say oh well fuck the world and keep going.  Thats me on a daily basis.  With the added in bit of hoping a truck takes me out sooner or later.

But then this sort of BULLSHIT happens and I just cant handle it.  My favourite manga creator Izumi Matsumoto, is dying.  He created Kimagure Orange Road, my absolute favourite manga of all time.  I've seen the tv series probably 4 times through.  The only other celebrity who died that upset me this much was Christopher Lee.  Admittedly, Lee was probably 10 times worse for me, but someone would have to be second place after him.  There are very VERY few people who will upset me when they pass on. I can probably count them on 1 hand.

So yeah.  Fucking saddened by this.  And just to rub salt in the wounds, I found this fucking kickstarter that had gone up last april and didnt even know about it!!!!!

https://www.kickstarter.com/projects/digitalmanga/publish-kimagure-orange-road-classic-manga


So many things I would have wanted from there.  I probably would of gotten the $900 tier for sure.  Would have loved to do the $1450 to get the sketch done by him but thats a big jump that at the time I dont think I could have afforded.  To be fair the $900 would of been out of my budget but I would of closed my eyes and gone for it.  Its like the world is constantly wanting to fuck me over.  The past couple months have been absolutely bullshit for me.  But what can you do.  Roll over and let the rest come again.

I will absolutely miss this guy.  He created something magical for me that even to this day I still love to death.  I look forward to getting my hands on those omnibus volumes, which I'm blindly believing will go retail with luck, and if the gods are kind they will finally bring out the KOR series on bluray because of his passing.  He'll always be a legend to me.