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Saturday, July 22, 2017

4 years

Things have been a bit everywhere lately.  Getting a new job last month but knowing next month is the end of my contract period is a real annoyance.  Still trying to find something more long term so I can afford that disney world trip.  Its always looking more and more like I'll never get to go because its just so bloody expensive.

For the moment though the only thing I'm thinking about is my cat who died 4 years ago today.  The crippling grief I felt has finally passed, though it took a few years, and the only thing left is absolute emptiness and sadness.  The only thing I have is being able to say hello to he spot I buried him when I leave or come back home since its near the stair case when I come in.  I'm probably one of the few people that do something like this.  Its pretty much a pointless effort and it makes me sad every time I do it, but I do it.  And I dont expect to stop.  If hes in some sort of fantastical spirit mode I  like to think hes sitting there acknowledging me each time.  If not. well, this world is as shit as I know it to be.  Either way I'll keep on doing what I'm doing because thats just how I am.

I miss you


Wednesday, May 17, 2017

Further streaming plans

So the other day we all had a pretty fun time playing L4D.  Jonna finally managed to join us and it was a blast.  We're hoping she'll be able to join us again when shes next free, but that might not be for a couple weeks or so.  Jeds planning to start streaming himself.  His internet connection isnt the best so it cant really be game related unless its something very specific.  But he'll be doing some drawing instead so you're free to chat with him while hes at it.  You may even see him making some panels for our comic!

As for me I plan to do a little streaming too, now that my PC is working again.  It'll be some random stuff, none of the big titles that everyone else streams.  So with luck most of the week the channel will have someone streaming something.  Jed on some afternoons, myself on some late late nights, and the weekends with all of us.  There is a chance we might get slack now and then, but thats just how we are sadly.

Monday, March 6, 2017

And that is the end of that

Current update on my rubbish.  Still havent figured out what cable I need for my video card.  Got answers from some tech people, the videocard makers, but not the power supply makers who are being beyond annoying right now and slow.  But in the end it doesnt really matter now because things have changed.

It seems the brother of the friend I norrowed the motherboard from wants it so he can upgrade his system.  He doesnt know what his cpu is but his excuse is the system is 5 years old.  This board I borrowed?  Is 5 years old.  I have no idea what hes expecting.  Needless to say I have to waste my savings, little that they are now, to buy a new system.

I cant be stuffed buying a motherboard and installing everything again for a 4th time.  And parts of whats left of my computer are starting to give me issues, like the usb slots on my case.  So I'm just going to order a new setup and have the store put it together and test it out before sending it.

I had saved enough to keep me going and paying bills for this year if I had issues finding work.   But once I buy this set up I'll have enough for about 4months.  And then I'll be forced to go onto government support for money if I dont find a job by then.  I absolutely detest doing it.  Others have no problem.  For me its humiliating and soul destroying.  The last time I was on it I was hoping every day was the last day of life because I'd gone for a stupid length of time before I finally found work.

Hopefully I can find a job soon.  Otherwise I see a very miserable and depressing future coming soon.  On slightly more happier info, Jed and myself are going along quite nicely with our comic.  Hopefully turns out entertaining.

Monday, February 27, 2017

Its not even funny now!!

Most of you, or at least some of you, have known about my pc issues over the last 3-4months.  It's kept me from playing a few weeks at a time.  The previous one was my motherboard dying, which was the sole reason of all my pc issues over the past couple years.  I had planned on upgrading, not last year but the year before that, to replace my 6 year old hardware, but money was a problem.  I had placed my date for last year sometime.  Managed to finally get a job I liked, and then bam!  No more job as thats how the world seems to work for me.  So pc upgrade was shifted to this year, realistically near the end of it.

Unfortunately my motherboard decided my plan sucks and couldnt hang on any more and died around december.  Or january,  I forget.  Any way, as luck should have it my friend had a spare board that was in many ways similar to my current one so I went over his place and took it to test my system.  Thankfully all worked fine.  Obviously I still need to buy my own one, but right now I cant.

3 weeks ago by video card  decided to finally say FUCK YOU and died also.  That 560Ti had lasted me since 2011, ran plenty of games at high, it was a damn beast of a card.  Whats amazing is one of its 2 fans died a couple years back or so, and the legend kept running with pretty low temperatures still.  Truly a masterpiece of technology.  I had planned on upgrading to the 970, but again money said no.  I then planned on upgrading to the 1070 or 1080, money again said no.  So I was hoping to wait till the new cards came out this year so that the older cards would go on a better discount.  Well that plan went out the window too.

So this is the main reason you've been seeing spaced out uploads and much less streaming.  Jeds also fairly here and there because of his kid and wife, and Austins usually busy with his channel.  If all 3 of us arent on at the same time then we usually just give out couple days a week of gaming a pass.

I tried to see how long I could go before I could buy a new card and be up and running, seeing my choices with the limited money I had etc.  The cheapest decent card to upgrade to would be the 1060.  Anything below that would be a waste of money as I'd replace it in a couple years anyway.  I dont like the temporary card stuff.  I buy for long run.  I finally snapped and decided the 1060 would have to do, and the thing can go on my savings which arent much and I was hpoing to keep them aside for important stuff like bills and food until I found a new job.  This bloody back injury is taking longer than I hoped to get better so I havent been applying for things, but hopefully that will change soon.

Anyway, the 1060 in my area costs around $460  This is still a bit brutal as I had expected by now it would be lower.  I noticed amazon were having a special sale, something like 40 or or whatever, $260US.  With postage and converted into my currency, it would be around 360.  I thought that was too good to ignore.  Because it seriously is.  No way will that card be anywhere near 360 here for the next year or so.

And this is the reason why you havent seen us on, especially the last couple weeks.

Now as for the card I finally received it a week and a half ago.  I had planned on installing it and being ready the the previous weekend that just passed.  But my plans were screwed because I dont have the correct cable to connect it to my power supply which is like 8 years old or something.  Yes, most of my pc is old because I'm a poor poor POOR bastard who cant even afford a fucking disney land trip despite aiming for one over the past couple years.  But thats another story for another time.  But mark my words, I WILL ride those damn teacups before I die.

I wasnt sure what cable I needed because this card has an 8pin cable port.  My power supply has 2 6pin outputs for video cards.  So my thinking was a 6pin to 8pin cable should be fine.  But then I thought maybe it wont have enough power and might need 2x 6pin to 1 8pin cable.  My previous card had 2 6pin ports so I needed a cable from both 6pin ports on the power supply because 1 wouldnt give enough power.

Anyway I emailed my videocard creator, my powersupply creator, and a tech board I'm used to.  Tech board said 6 to 8 is all I need.  Video card said 2x6 to 8.  So I'm like ok this is going well.  PSU people?  No reply yet.  So I called them up and the lady who picked up said the tech guy, who happens to be the ONLY FUCKING TECH GUY FOR THE ENTIRE COMPANY FOR ALL AUSTRALIA, was on holiday and wont be back for a couple days.  I was absolutely stunned.  Asked her how can he be on holiday without a replacement?  She said he has a replacement, but hes not a tech guy to help me.  Pretty USELESS replacement.  I asked her if theres any other branch somewhere I can message.  She said yes, I can contact the main headquarters in taiwan.  I said brilliant, whats the email.  She gave me it then said, btw they're on a holiday there for the next couple days.  My jaw dropped.

Sp long story short, my plans for getting up and running for next weekend are completely out, and I'm hoping to make the following one after once I know wtf I'm buying.  Cable is going to cost me about $30 so yeah, I'm exactly running blindly into this.  And so because of this you wont see us for a little bit longer.  Doing my best to change this.  But I wanted to thank you all for somehow enjoying our stuff enough to want to follow and support us.  We're not super hardcore like all the other channels and streamers, but we do our best with the limited time some of us have.

Again, we love and appreciate the bloody lot of you.  Thanks for still being here with us.

Wednesday, February 15, 2017

Well done PC. Well done..

So by now everyone knows about my pc issues and how my motherboard finally died.  Thankfully  my friend had a spare board and let me take it to see if my pc would run again since I cant afford a new board right now.  Thankfully it worked.  Everything was going smoothly for a couple weeks until........ the video card died.

Thats right.  My card decided that today on our lord gpus 6th year of life, it was time to say fuck you and finally die.  To be fair I'm surprised its lasted this long since one of its 2 fans hasnt worked for the past couple years.  Though the temps were always good despite this..  Testament to MSI's amazing gaming series of cards.  I had planned on upgrading back when the 970 came out but couldnt afford it.  My next plan was the 1070, but again couldnt afford it.  I was hoping my aging 560Ti could make it to the end of the year in hopes I could afford it then.  Sadly I wasnt given that luxury and now I'm without a gaming computer.  The only reason I'm online at all is because the cpu has a built in graphics card.  So its fine for anything except for games.  Well, it can play some things in potato quality, but its beyond shit.  Whats sadder is my phone can handle graphics 6 times above what this joke can do.  But at least I can get on the internet and edit videos I have saved up.

Because of this set back I'm not sure when I'll be able to stream again or play anything because I really cant afford to buy anything.  I guess its good I didnt buy For Honour, since I wouldnt be able to play it.  Of course I didnt buy it because I cant afford it.  SEE A PATTERN!?

I'll just spend my time making blog posts and uploading videos to the youtube channel and also the patreon.  Keep me from snapping and shooting up the entire country.  Not that I can afford a gun.  I'll just make shooting sounds.  Probably cant afford those either.

Friday, January 27, 2017

Oh So Brilliant

Lets see... Oh yes.  This is to let you all know that Jed and myself have been working on a comic.  BUT CON!!  I hear you shrill!  We already know you were both working on a comic!  There are some pages linked on the blog!!

Yes this is true my delicious little tramps.  However we've decided to turn that into a proper comic.  None of this 3-4 panel web comic shit.  Its going to be a proper comic full of adventure and romance!  And by romance I mean there will be cleavage.  Its going to have those two same characters and some of the panels we put up will be reused and incorporated into this new format.  But there will also be some changes.  We're hoping to get to around 40-50 pages before we look it over and decide if we're happy with it before we start showing it off.  Obviously this will take a while depending on how slack I am and how busy Jed is.  But fingers crossed it goes well and we dont lose interest like last time.

I also finally went out and bought a new light for my room.  I'll be installing it sometime next week.  Hopefully It'll give me much more light.  Maybe my webcam will like it more and I might use it now and then.  And I finally got my Skeletor statue out on display.  Heres a dodgy photo of it.  I'll be making a video of it a little down the ways with some proper high quality photos and putting it onto the patreon.  I absolutely love it.  Wish it was larger though because it would really show off all the insane detail.  It's about 21" tall, although thats the tip of the staff..  The head is probably around 17-18".  It's still a great size.  I look forward to getting Evil Lyn and putting her next to him!

Thanks for reading!  Feel free to leave abusive messages for Jed.  I know I do.




Friday, January 13, 2017

The back is not pleased

One of the latest things with me has been a newfound hate I have for my old injured back.  Back when I was 21 I lifted something far heavier than I should have and far too quickly because my boss was being an absolute cunt.  I felt a little twinge in my lower back which later turned into stupid pain.  Typical nerve damage.  I was actually surprised to find out quite a few people I know have the same problem.

Any way the pain is brutal and it screwed me for years.  Only 5 years ago I found a simple back exercise that would counter all pain so I wouldnt feel it again.  Problem is I need to do it once every couple weeks to keep it good.  Sadly people get lazy.  No pain, no problem.  I'd go for months without doing it and suddenly be all OMG the pain is there again, like this should be a surprise.

Normally the pain has always focused on the lower back, which made simple things like leaning slightly over the sink while brushing teeth, picking something off the floor, or even getting out of bed an absolute nightmare for a few weeks till my exercises did their thing.  This time it did something completely new.  The back pain was there again.  But I could feel the nerve that got screwed deciding to do something new.

You know when you pinch that nerve that in the back of your shoulder blade or neck, and you just cant turn your head without crying?  I got that in my lower back.  But it decided to move more to my hip which was totally new.  This caused a knock on effect.  My legs from my thighs to my calfs, were SCREAMING in pain.  Like I'd walked for 2 days straight and then had them set on fire.  I'd never experienced anything like this before.  Standing was very painful.  Sitting was more horrible.  But lying down?  Impossible.  I couldnt even sleep because of the pain.  And my pain threshold is stupidly high which says something.

After about 3 days of this and 2-3 hours of sleep at best, I decided to take some painkillers.  This is something I never do.  Not even if my head is exploding with the mother of all headaches.  I've probably taken some once in the last 5 years.  I wasnt expecting anything since they're just standard.  But much to my surprise after about 20min the pain went away.  It would only last half the day so twice a day I was taking them.  I guess since I never take them their strength is full power for me.  Unlike my mum who eats them every day at the smallest pain she gets. 

I did this for about 3-4 days which really helped.  For the past 2 days I've taken none.  The pain is still there, but its much less now, so my exercises seem to be shifting into gear finally.  I can still feel the issue which makes me worry that the nerve is still fucked off and could be triggered into being stupid again if I do the slightest wrong thing.  One of the strangest things though was losing my flexibility.  The day before my body died, I could easily do the splits.  Martial arts history blahblahblah.  Now I cant even lean over slightly with my legs straight.  Its like all my muscles have clenched up and refuse to do anything.  I'll wait another week and give myself more time to heal before I try and test out my flexibility again and see if its come back.  It pisses me off because it takes months of daily stretches and I'll rage if all that effort has been wasted.  At least I'm not feeling completely suicidal anymore.  That pain was something you could only read in legends.

Wednesday, January 11, 2017

A generous long pause

Well that was almost 2 months since my last update.  Guess I have a few things to put down this time.  Mind you there hasnt been that much good to bother posting about.  A month back my pc decided to just implode on itself.  Bluescreen crash and then refused to boot up into windows again.  Just reset loop of hell every 5 seconds,  I figured my faulty SSD had finally decided to pass on.  The things been screwy for the past 3 years.  Pretty impressive considering its 5 years old and only has a 1 year life expectancy.  So I pulled it out and replaced it with one I bought a year and a half back, during a time I thought it was about to die since my pc kept freezing twice a day.  Weirdly it started to behave when the replacement came in so I never bothered to install it because of laziness mixed with paranoia.

But moving on, I put the new drive in and thought this might be a good time to install windows 10 since almost everyone has been positive about it and it was a free update.  One thing I hate doing is reinstalling windows.  Something always goes wrong when I do.  So I'm going along, installing the programs I need to get me going.  And slowly but surely I'm starting to notice small things that arent right.  And some big things.  One of them was whenever I recorded or streamed, peoples voices would sound a little hollow and with a bit of an echo.  It was very annoying.  Didnt matter if I was using teamspeak, discord, whatever.   The other persons voice was always dodgy.  So I spent a couple weeks troubleshooting with my own knowledge and then scouring the internet for people with the same issues.  Nothing seemed to fix it.  Another issue I had was some of my motherboard utilities wouldnt work with win10, which was an extremely annoying thing.  Especially since I'd gotten another bluescreen while playing a game to test.  Also my mic, if I were to mute myself for a little and then unmute, it would keep me muted until I unplugged it and plugged it back in again.  Streaming to twitch wasnt working properly either.  The quality went to hell and the stream kept break all the time.  It was infuriating.

There were a few other things that slowed me down as I tried to fix this or that.  In the end I decided to reinstall win7 thinking this would sot out my issues.  I did like a few things about 10 but since I couldnt fix anything I was pretty much forced to go back.  Unfortunately some of my problems were still there.  Primarily the voice echo.  After another week or so of trying to sort it out, I finally fixed it.  How?  Logitech had changed their drivers last year when their contract with ScreamingBee ended.  Which meant a few voice altering modules were removed.  When I reverted back to a driver that had these still, the echo was gone.  So I'm super happy.  Streamiing works again and all my drivers are back on.  Though I am getting an annoying bug when I launch the OBS software to stream.  It auto lowers my volume down to 10%, which makes no sense.  I can live with it if I cant figure out how to fix it.

I did get another bluescreen so this got me paranoid.  I stress tested my memory which came up fine.  So I thought maybe its a windows thing since it hadnt updated fully because microsoft purposely broke the update feature to force people to move onto 10.  So I had to manually download a crapload of them.  A few days later I got the crash and reset loop issue again.  I got my system working again by unplugging the SSD and plugging it back in again.  So this cancelled out any theory about damaged ram.  My guess is my motherboard must be faulty.  My system is going on 6 years old now so its no surprise.  But I cant afford to upgrade anything so I'll just have to grin and bare it for a while and just hope it doesnt die.

I havent installed everything yet since I'm moving slowly, and I really hope my editing software doesnt give me any freak issues.  But what I've learned from this is if you have an older system, dont update to windows 10.  All the people I know who have it and love it have upgraded their motherboard in the last couple years.  People with fairly older ones have issues because the drivers and such dont seem to get updated.  After a month of stress it seems to be ok now.  This is the reason I havent updated the youtube channel.  Super sorry.  Should be back to normal now.  Theres a bunch of other stuff I wanted to post but I'll wait a couple days before putting that up.  This page is already long enough.  Thanks for reading!