I cant fucking do this

You know you go through things that arent good, and you get to a point where you're just numb to them and expect them to happen and just say oh well fuck the world and keep going.  Thats me on a daily basis.  With the added in bit of hoping a truck takes me out sooner or later.

But then this sort of BULLSHIT happens and I just cant handle it.  My favourite manga creator Izumi Matsumoto, is dying.  He created Kimagure Orange Road, my absolute favourite manga of all time.  I've seen the tv series probably 4 times through.  The only other celebrity who died that upset me this much was Christopher Lee.  Admittedly, Lee was probably 10 times worse for me, but someone would have to be second place after him.  There are very VERY few people who will upset me when they pass on. I can probably count them on 1 hand.

So yeah.  Fucking saddened by this.  And just to rub salt in the wounds, I found this fucking kickstarter that had gone up last april and didnt even know about it!!!!!

https://www.kickstarter.com/projects/digitalmanga/publish-kimagure-orange-road-classic-manga


So many things I would have wanted from there.  I probably would of gotten the $900 tier for sure.  Would have loved to do the $1450 to get the sketch done by him but thats a big jump that at the time I dont think I could have afforded.  To be fair the $900 would of been out of my budget but I would of closed my eyes and gone for it.  Its like the world is constantly wanting to fuck me over.  The past couple months have been absolutely bullshit for me.  But what can you do.  Roll over and let the rest come again.

I will absolutely miss this guy.  He created something magical for me that even to this day I still love to death.  I look forward to getting my hands on those omnibus volumes, which I'm blindly believing will go retail with luck, and if the gods are kind they will finally bring out the KOR series on bluray because of his passing.  He'll always be a legend to me.