Dead city part 6

Productive

So today I finally went to the vet to collect a couple things.  I had my cat cremated and sorted to pick up from them, plus I had to pay the bill from when I was there last monday.  The vet was awesome enough to let me pay him later since I was not in the best of shape at the time.  I couldnt even talk because my throat had clenched up so badly.  I was trying to use my hands and head as gestures to reply back to questions but the vet was having trouble himself and couldnt make eye contact with me so it wa shard going.  I mean he'd been looking after Kyo for 15 years of the almost 19 years I'd had him so he was fairly upset over everything too.  One thing about Australians is they absolutely love animals.  You just dont see this in other countries.

So when I got there I had hoped to speak to both vets there to thank them but the stupid place was annoyingly busy.  I guess that happens on a monday.  Out of all the girls who worked at the front counter only 1 was there that recognized me instantly.  Another shame since there were 2 other girls I was hoping to say bye to.  I'd brought in a gift for all of them though and at least I got to see one persons reaction.  She was shocked and super happy, saying it felt like christmas.  Her eyes absolutely lit up.

These were from my favourite cake store nearby.  I've had them both and I adore them.  Told the girl to be careful with the cake.  Its extremely filling so dont go grabbing a huge piece like you would in any other ordinary cake.  This shits gangstah.  Its also disgustingly expensive, but I dont like to half ass gifts.  I would of loved to see this other girls reaction though who I was more familiar with.  And the 2 vets too.  I dont know how often people thank them after something like this.  I'm sure I'll bump into one of them down the road at a store or something.  Happened before.

The girl told me nobody was actually expecting me to return because I'd been so upset before.  I said I couldnt leave my cat here on his own.  So she gave me the box with the things inside and said no one had touched anything inside out of respect for me.  That was pretty cool.

This certificate was inside.  I didnt really think much of it.  I mean its a nice touch, but not for me.  Also the date is horribly wrong.

This was the urn that I got out of the bunch I could select from.  They were supposed to paint it to resemble Kyo.  Hes more grey than black.  Plus he doesnt have frog eyes.   I honestly wasnt expecting much so I'm not too bothered by it.  I plan to get a proper thing of Kyo done down the road when I can afford it as right now I'm absolutely almost out of money.  I'll most likely get something from this place-

http://www.minettesculpture.com/CUSTOM_Pet_Sculptures.php

Looks like the guy goes some pretty good work there.  I'll look around in case I find anything cheaper or better, but for now this is my first pick.

And this is pretty much what I have left.  The companion I'd had for almost 19 years, is just a small pile of dust in a little bag.  I really had to fight to hold my composure.  My mum didnt and happily cried away.  In the end I chose where to bury him despite previously letting my mum choose since I wasnt wanting to get into any arguments.  I mean whats it matter now?  Originally would of liked it in my room but she wont have that, so I wont bother wasting time arguing.  She wanted to bury him in part of the yard that he liked but I know my dad plans to dig that area up down the road so he can install something there so I said no.  And I chose an area of the garden he liked and buried him there.  Mum was happy with the location.  So we dug a deep enough hole and poured the ashes in.

I put the urn in the back under the plant.  Its coated so protected from the rain and stuff.  But I dont care too much if it loses its shine.  Easy to paint again if I feel the urge.  But he did like this area.  Its also the one area he never urinated in.  Heres an old picture from years back of him happily enjoying himself.

Now and then I catch myself looking over my shoulder at the spare chair he'd sleep in since I did it about 100 times a day to make sure how he was.  Its reflex.  All I see now is an empty chair.  I'm doing it less and less but now and then my brain manages to forget hes not here any more.  Its pretty depressing.

The Sausage

So out of my many videos that I sent to Jed to bug him with, this is the latest.  He cursed me a good while after seeing it so I will place it under the effective list.

Final video of Kyo

I made this mainly for myself but thought I'd put it up here.

Everythings a little darker

So frustrating

You know when things go wrong they usually just keep going.  Today I was supposed to attend this seminar thing where a small group of you go in for 2 hours and give your opinions on this or that topic they have and at the end you're given $80.  This sort of thing happens often and I was randomly chosen.  So I thought SCORE I'm not working and I need money fairly badly at the moment.  So today should of been a good day.  Not so.


Last night my car was doing something strange.  The past few days its been turning on slower.  I dont know how to explain it but usually when this happens you know the battery is about to die.  And last night it stopped working.  The bullshit thing about this is the battery is only 5 months old.  This stuff is meant to last over a year. Problem is I cant get a new battery till monday, which will cost me around $120.  So I went from potentially making $80 and now being $40 in the negative.  BRILLIANT!

Worst of all, tomorrow is also my plan to take my cat in to finally put him to sleep.  He's held out so well these past couple weeks.  But hes starting to get worse.  His balance is going, he doesnt things that arent incredibly smart which doesnt suit him because hes fucking intelligent as.  And his wound is seeping much more so that whenever he shakes his head he sometimes flicks blood across the tiles.  So yeah, not looking forward to it, but theres no way I'm going to let him get worse.  I think hes reaching his deadline where his quality of life is going to drastically go down.  I'm half expecting this to be around tuesday.  No doubt I'll be charged another $200 for them to do this.  Thieving scum.  You'd think after all the years and money I'd spent there they'd do me a favour just once.

Slight good news, Jed has informed me that his friend Andy only needs to paint his new place and once thats done he'll be able to head over there any time and use his internet, so we should be able to get much more gaming done than we have in the past year or so.  Fingers crossed.  We have a shitload of co-op games we've been wanting to play together but havent managed to.  And a second piece of good news, Cody's finally found a job and I was helping him choose out PC parts to build his new system so he'll be playing with us pretty often as well.  This is a long time coming.

Portal 2 part 13

We had issues with this one lol

Portal 2 part 12

I'm on a ROLL!

Portal 2 part 11

I hope you all enjoy the intro!

Van Gogh would be green with envy

So a friend of mine, who shall go by the name of Kippo, because thats what I call him, showed me something that a friend of his, called Krystal, drew. Its a picture of me.  Now I dont know if this is the final version or if she will make any changes etc, but I thought it was pretty cool.

Shes drawn a few others of some other people we know, but I thought I'd slap this one up for the meantime.  So just to show my appreciation, I decided to draw my version of the above picture.  I think we can all agree that my effort comes pretty close in terms of quality and flair.

And so on

This week I was supposed to put my cat to sleep.  However I chose to delay it.  Over the last couple months hes been having injections every 2-3 days to keep him normal.  He would lose his balance easily, lose is appetite, just look miserable and sore.  Sometimes the injections would make him ok for a day or two but he would always revert, and sometimes really badly.  Which is the reason I decided to put him down.  The cancer was screwing with him.

Since saturday I havent gone back to the vet.  For whatever reason he seems much much better.  Granted the jaw is still hurting him, but he seems much different.  Hes eating heaps, hes running around, his balance is good, he talks lots, and he even bit me the other day.  He hasnt done that in months.  When hes not biting or clawing at me its usually not a good sign.  Now he is so thats awesome.  I dont know why hes still going so well.  It goes against everything thats happened in the past few months.  I rescheduled for thursday and cancelled that too.  I cant bring myself to put him to sleep when hes acting so fine.  A week ago I would have.  But hes not as sick now.  His gums still bleed and hes still sore, but he seems happy.  So I'm going to sit and wait and see how long this goes for.  It could be only a few days for all I know, but the extra time I've had now I think has prepared me better for when I do go ahead with it, and I dont see it being too far away.

Today I also had an interview for a job.  Its mainly keeping a database updated with all types of records regarding an airline here.  It went well, made the 3 interviewers laugh a few times.  They seemed happy.  But thats how all my interviews generally go so I'm not expecting anything.  However if I do get it then I'm pretty much dead on for going to disney world next year.   I originally planned to go to disney land, but Jed told me about this Fantasy Land place they just built in the florida World one.  Has areas from the Little Mermaid and Beauty and the Beast.  Thats pretty much all I needed to know to change my destination.  And for whatever reason the Disney Cruise isnt going longer than a day or two at disney land during the period I plan to go.  Florida one its good for 4-5 days.  And I'm going on that fucking cruise.  Maybe I can romance me an Ariel <3

L4D Dead City part 5

Finally got around to remembering about this.  Like I mentioned int he description of the video, there was a massive 8month gap between us playing, mainly because Jed had huge issues being able to log on during a time I was on, which is to say he couldnt log on at all because of life stuff.  So theres 2 other people in this clip.  You might remember Zach from the earlier days of L4D games before he was driven off pretty early.  FUN TIMES

Fuck everything

So today I went in for my cats possible 1 millionth vet appointment.  After a little talking we all came to the conclusion that this isnt any normal infection since its been with him for about 4 months and the 3 times a week visits and shots are not improving it.  We thought it was probably in the bone of the jaw so would take longer.  But judging with how he is, and also seeing how thin his blood is, it seems he has cancer.  I'll be taking him on tuesday to put him to sleep.  The vet shook my hand and called me a legend for keeping such a close watch on him and spending so much money trying to get him better.  Says anyone else would of put him to sleep years ago.  He's always been pretty sickly.  Every ones surprised hes made it this far, and almost 18.   I'd always hoped old age would get him after 20 since hes such a strong cat, but hes always gotten sick so easily.  Well I've got a couple days left to spoil him rotten.  More then usual.  Which will be tough because hes pretty fucking spoiled as is.

Other then that I've been doing some cleaning and sorting of my room.  I was sick of having my receiver on the floor and all the cables and stuff and finally found a cabinet I was happy enough to grab.

Taken with my shit iphone instead of my proper camera because I'm smart.  But yeah, that wall used to have a couple dvd shelf stacks, the speaker was on the ground, the receiver in front of that bookshelf with a billion fucking cables.  Now its neater and less of a distraction for my borderline OCD brain.  The only problem is I'm not 100% used to the layout.  I was mopping the floor just now and with my brain completely thinking about my cat, I accidently smashed the hilt of the mop handle into my Alien statues face, knocking out 2 of its teeth.  I was furious with myself since I'm so fucking careful of EVERYTHING in my room.  And this is like the 1 thing I really didnt want damaged.  Thankfully the breaks are clean so I should have no problem putting them back on with some glue.  I did that with my LOTR Uruk-hai statue who had his big toe broken off and I got it for $100 cheaper.  Glued it back on and you cant even tell it was broken.  So fingers crossed I manage to salvage this with minimal effort and I dont glue my fingers together.  Probably will though.


Finally I wanted to share a site I found.  It shows all the specials on at the moment at places like steam, Greenmangaming, GoG, and others.  You can also type the name of a game you want and it'll list it with price at each place so you can see whats the cheapest.  Better yet you can sign up for notifications for when said game goes on sale.  Its brilliant.

http://www.cheapshark.com/

Borderlands 2 part 20

So with this clip I went ahead and deleted a crapload of stuff, like lots of random fighting and roaming to make it go quicker.  Destroyed about 40min of rubbish.  Tell me if you prefer it cut up lol.  And also if you like the quality of the compression.  I'm testing out a few things.

Portal 2 part 10!

I finally got around to this one and it was a riot lol

Some random title

Well the last week has been frustrating.  Not going to mention everything cause I'd be here all day, but they're all shit.  I did have a job interview that went really well.  Next day I'm told I was in the top 3 choices and it was very hard for them blahblah but they went with someone else.  Well good for you.  Whats the point of me being in your top 3.  I dont benefit shit from that.

My cats been in his worst period ever.  The infection in his mouth isnt improving, if anything it got worse a couple days ago after receiving 2 expensive injections that were supposed to help.  Its bleeding, there was a bad smell coming from it, he couldnt even eat from the pain.  So for the last 2 days I was seriously considering having him put down because hes just absolutely miserable and after 4 months of me trying to help him heal with very expensive constant vet trips, it just seems everythings going the wrong way and I'm starting to feel bad for making him suffer  like this.  Today he seems slightly better.  But only slightly.  I have another trip to the vet tomorrow so we'll see how it goes.  But I'm thinking theres really only one ending.  And I dont like it.

Also today is fireworks night.  Its like Americas 4th of july but just for my state.  So yeah, fireworks going off all over the place and heres me with a sick cat who shard enough to get to eat already without BOOMBOOMBOOM.  Its just perfect.  Not gonna lie, I'm rooting for many accidents and a record night at the hospital.

I saw superman today.  Thats me trying to distract myself from the stress of my cat.  Movie was awesome.  Not sure why critics are having a sulk over it.  Maybe there wasnt some powerful message about a minority in it who beat the aliens by strength of will and a song.  Either way, loved it as much as I did star trek.  Roll on Pacific Rim and Thor 2!!!