Sunday, September 8, 2013
The other night I had an annoying dream. I was coming back from a friends place at like 2am and noticed something on the side of my driveway inside my house. It was a cat that looked exactly like Kyo. We have an electronic gate so I pressed the button and it started to open slowly. I got out of the car not interested in waiting for it to open completely, worried that maybe if I wait too long he might disappear. I walked inside and crouched and coaxed him to come to me, and he did, and I was just so fucking happy as he kept coming closer instead of vanishing. But when he finally got to me I noticed the face was different. It wasnt kyo. Just some other cat that resembled him. The worst part is this was one of those very rare ultra realistic feeling dreams. I woke up shattered. I love nightmares, but not that shit. Its like the universe is just taunting me. I envy the people who can get over a pet dying. I only wish I saw him as just a pet. But I didnt. And I never will.
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