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Today started off brilliantly.  Woke up to the sounds of BANGBANG at the door.  I didnt bother getting up because the sun was still down.  Whoever the fuck that is can come back later.  And then the phone rang.  It was my sister demanding to be let in.  She'd come up from melbourne to visit for the new year etc.  I was furious mind since it was like 5am and I'd only been asleep 3hours.  One thing about me that everyone knows is that I totally and utterly detest my sister.  I do not speak to her unless I'm forced to.  I haven't spoken to her husband or his family in nearly 2 years and do not plan to change that.  If I could add my sister to that I'd be on cloud nine.  But no.  This will never happen while I still live at home since my parents are too frustratingly annoying to tell her to stay at a hotel when she visits.  They're also unhappy int he knowledge that when they both pass away that I will completely break contact with her and theres nothing they can do or say about it.  At least that much I have control of.

I don't get the whole shock people show me when they hear me talk about her like that.  If you know someone who you cannot stand, do you keep talking to them?  No.  Why exactly should family be any different?  Because its blood?  I'm expected to be miserable because of that bullshit rule?  People told me when I was younger that when I get older I'll see things differently and mature etc blahblah.  I'm now 35.  When exactly do I get to be allowed by everyone to do as I please?  Fuck that.  Few things upset me.  FEW.  She's one of them.  I cannot be in the same room with her for long before an argument starts up.  Whenever I visited Melbourne I would stay at her house with her husband.  This year I changed that.  I preferred to go to a hotel for a week then stay with them and save money.  I didn't even announce my intention of visiting there.  Apparently her husband is pretty upset I refuse to speak to him anymore.  Well too bad.  I have a rule.  You piss me off a fair amount of times, and I mean seriously fucking piss me off, and that's it.  Go find someone else to chat with. 

Theres no point in going into detail why I cant stand him anymore.  Lets just say they were talking about divorcing for a while (they're fine now supposedly but whatever), and I was basically their middle man with endless phone calls at 5-6am from one of them screaming to me to tell the other to see sense blahblahblah.  Well after 4months of this bullshit and me twitching every time the phone rang, it seriously started to affect me mentally, the very next phone call I got from them while they were having a massive argument at their house I hung up on them and called the police and had them go over stating spouse abuse.  I dont care that it was a lie, I just wanted them to understand they can royally fuck off forever.  I got the message across too.  After that blocked them both from msn, steam, email, what have you.  Got a new phone, refused to tell them my new number and told my parents on penalty of me moving out and leaving them to live alone for the rest of their life if they even hinted my new number to them.  I couldn't stand my sister since I was a kid, but she brings nothing but drama.  Just for reference, I LOVE helping people out as an unofficial counsellor and have always been told my advice is excellent since I'm great at listening, and I even got one guy who outright detested me to become a close friend.  With those two things in mind now realise how much I have to truly hate someone to not want to speak to them again, and those being related to me.

Ok that was a little bit much.  I felt like ranting.  I'd put up a poll asking how many of you hated someone in your family, but I don't know how to make polls and I'm also a bit lazy at bothering to figure it out.  So for now I'll just end things with something funny.  When I saw this screenshot I almost outright choked.  totally lol worthy.

Almost there

New years is just around the corner.  I'm hoping to evolve and gain some mutant powers.  I dont see it happening but I've got my fingers crossed, and everyone knows that if you cross your fingers you get +3 to your luck rating.

I've ginally started up Eternal Sonata, an rpg on the consoles.  Been meaning to play that for ages.  Its pretty good, which is rare for a japanese rpg lately.  Its also frustratingly hard.  Sub bosses kill me.  Like multiple times.  Right now I'm doing the old school levelling up for a few hours to try and beat this one bastard who rapes me something vicious.  Bit annoying since I've got too many games to play.  I dont want to waste it levelling up for hours and hours.  But the gameplay is really good.  Some very original things in the combat. 

STEAM has been having some amazing sales this week.  I've picked up a few games.  I've noticed todays sales has the Kings Bounty pack up.  Brilliant games, really dying for a sequel.  Hope they make one.  Too many good games around.  I'll have less time soon also if I get a job.  I've started applying for a few, focusing on going back into IT instead of government etc.  And finance can totally fuck off.  And with that I'll leave you an insight into video game development.

Merry christmas!

At least its christmas for me in Australia.  Please eat lots of cake!

Not the best

Today was just begging for it.  I went to bed around 2am feeling super duper tired which is rare, but I really dont know if I slept much.  I writhed and rolled about, body ignoring the fact that I was actually tired to begin with.  I think I might of gotten an hour sleep.  I say might because I was fully awake at 6am, and I had a dream, so you only really have a dream if you're sleeping.  And the dream was just..argh... I love nightmares right, I mean REALLY love them.  But this dream was like a wannabe nightmare.  It kept trying to be scary and it just wasnt, it was just totally stupid.  In my dream I actually got annoyed.  I got annoyed at MY dream while IN the dream because it was doing such a shit job at trying to scare me.  I woke up feeling annoyed.

Cancelled my cats vet trip.  His injury is heaps better and at the moment since I'm not working I cant really justify a third $150 trip.  I really cant.  My supplies are getting low and I think I'll have to start applying for jobs very soon.  At least my cats gettng heaps better.

Unfortunately I'm going to have to end this on a sad note.  I found out today that my grandfather died yesterday.  He was 84.  He'd also gone through 3 strokes and was pretty sick lately, so I'd already prepared myself.  Not many people can go through 3 strokes and still be able to walk.  He was tough as nails.  And I'm just really happy that I got to meet him last year when I visited greece after 25 years absence.  I spent plenty of time with him,listening to his stories and just joking around.  My grandmother said after I left he stopped joking around and just sat there quietly most of the days. My mum was planning to visit next year and I was thinking about going too.  I was hoping he'd make one more year.   I'll really miss him.

Screw it

I've realised after waking up at 8pm this time that I'm actually trying too hard to control my sleeping patterns. In actual fact I could snap myself out of it and within 2 days be waking up at 10am average. Most of the times I sleep in is mainly because I'm dreaming and I want to see how it pans out. I enjoy my dreams, especially when they're nightmares. So much damn fun. So I let them carry on till they dont go any more, or if someone wakes me up. I seriously fucking LOVE nightmares. And with my imagination I have some seriously messed up ones.

Right now its almost 6am. I dont expect to be sleeping till around 9am. But I need to be up before the post office closes because they left me a card saying I have a parcel to pick up. It was just typical that my parents decided to be away during the time the postman came by. I'm going to take a guess and say its those photos I had sent off to be printed. If they end up looking like I hope they do then I'm going to go all hardcore and improve some old photos my mum wanted me to fix of her and her family when she was younger. Like photos from 40-50 years ago. Should be entertaining.

My cats injury is healing real well. I expect in about a week it'll almost be gone. I still need to take him in this thursday for a follow up to make sure he continues healing. Theres some more money gone I dont really have. I think I'll get pizza today.

Ok lets see what pictures I can stick up... hmm... Ok heres a good one. It was an advert I saw on a page that just made me stop and blink. See if you can understand why.

I bring the spasticness

The other day was interesting.  Went to bed around 5am'ish, which is fairly standard.  Actually thats slightly early.  Normally I'd be out of bed around 1 since I'd just lie there lazily after waking up at 11.  But I woke up and looked at the clock and it said 7pm.  Confused me a little.  Maybe sleep caught up with me finally. 

Mums been enjoying the vacuum.  I vacuumed the carpet in her room and came away with quite a bit of crap.  She was all surprised because she'd just vacuumed it the day before with the other one we had.  Only then did she realise how godly it actually was.  I've also misplaced the receipt for it.  And this after the guy at the store said I looked intelligent enough to make a backup of it unlike others who lose things.  HEEHEE!  I'm thinking it might of fallen out of my pocket while I was getting it into the car.  Not sure.   Will probably clean up my desk today and see if its under one of my papers or such.

Managed to finally watch The Other Guys.  Not too bad a film.  I've also FINALLY started Carnivale.  I've been meaning to watch the series for years.  Its very different.  Very fantastical.  You cant think of it as normal reality because thats not how the show works.  I'm enjoying it after 4 episodes.  First ep I wasnt sure what to think about it.

Oh, also noticed a very awesome video for Rockstars new game, LA Niore.  It shows the technical side to how they made the facial animations and everything so lifelike.  Very awesome.  And its from an Australian studio too. 

Smart or not smart

You know what annoys me?  People who complain about their jobs, even though their jobs are very simple with huge doses of slacking off, and somehow think their lives suck so much because of it.  How about you quit it then?  Dont go to the comfy job you hate so much.  Oh whats that?  You need to support your weekly weekends of drinking out with friends at clubs?  THEN STFU!  Some of us dont actually get to work.  Noobs.

So FINALLY took my cat into the vet today for his second checkup.  He's doing pretty good, although his main injury is healing slowly as expected.  Thats about $320 in 2 weeks I've spent, and I have no job lol.  Good thing I saved up a bit since I saw my jobless state coming a month early.  I also spent a liiiiiiiiittle more then I should have on a vacuum for my mum.  $800 to be precise.  I had my thoughts pretty much on this specific Dyson which was around $700.  I didnt want to spend too much but you pretty much get what you pay for.  Buy cheap, dont expect to get the cat hair out of the carpet.  Its just simple logic.  I learned this lesson long ago when I mocked my friend for spending $500 on a set of headphones.  I mean seriously wtf?  I mean yeah it sounded pretty awesome but so do most headphones.  And then I went through a period of 6months where I wasnt happy with my current headphones, and bought about 3 other pairs trying to find a good one.  Then I realised after listening to a really good one, I couldnt just go out and buy $50-$80 crap.  The sound quality was like night and day.  So yeah, $400 headset and I was in sound orgasm mode.  I heard shit I NEVER heard with my other sets.  And it lasted me a good 6 years.  Technically still works, but replaced it anyway because the little cable attaching to the headphones gives off a little static when it comes.  ie every fucking time.  My fault for yanking it one too many times.

So anyway, after going to a few stores I went to one that focuses solely on vacuums and nothing else.  The guy had heaps of useful information and showed me some pretty awesome things.  He basically tossed some dirt onto the carpet and RUBBED it in really well with his shoes.  Then he grabbed then Miele one that cost about $1500 and sucked it all up.  He emptied the little container out and was like see?  It grabbed all that dirt I put down didnt it!  And I'm like YEAH DUDE.  And then he said NOW WATCH THIS!! and he picked up the Hoover Core Plus and started sucking at the carpet again.  This thing though has some sort of vibration thing in the carpet head, so while you're vacuuming you can set it to vibrate like mad.  This dislodges dirt and crap, and its their own patent technology so no other cleaner has it.  Anyway, he opened the little canister where all the crap goes in and I was shocked to see it had sucked up a cup full of dirt SOMEHOW.  And the dirt was really fine, like it had been crushed so often and hidden deep in it.  I asked him how it did with pet hair, and he tossed some wool and hair onto the carpet and BAM!  2 swipes over it and it was all gone.

So pretty much I bought it.  He gave me a little bit of a discount, so $800 all up with a 5 year warranty.  So I guess $50 off.  Its not that heavy, its easy to move around, and its not really really  REALLY loud like our previous vacuum. Heres a pic

Its not as big as it looks.  Its kinda smallish.  That cylander can be detatched and emptied. But yeah, I was completely impressed.  So merry christmas mum.   Even when I'm not working I'm still buying expensive gifts.  Someone shoot me.

A hundred curse words wouldnt do my annoyance justice

Theres nothing more frustrating than everything just going due south of you.  Having trouble getting sleep over the past month is one thing.  But last night I actually felt sleepy around midnight, and even managed to go to bed a little after 4, which is generally early when it comes to my sleeping habits.  So imagine my surprise when I hear some music blaring away at 7am.  I open my eyes and I'm like wtf is THAT, and why is it sounding so close.  Also why is it NOT stopping.  I then realised it was my spare phone.  I hadnt bothered using it anymore since I got my iphone a few months ago, but my mother wanted to use it to call my dad to pick her up while she was at the store, so I charged it up and set it up for her since my mum + technology = major fail.   Last night I turned it off, but didnt wait long enough for it to do its shutting down process before I closed the flip lid.  Apparently this CANCELS whatever the fuck its in the middle of doing.  What I also didnt notice was a previous alarm setting programmed in to wake me up.  So today it got its revenge on me for cheating on it with a newer model phone.  And it got it good.

Most people get pissed off and either slam whatever woke them up or throw it across the room.  I had to get up, figure out where the hell I had the damn thing on my desk, and then turn it off.  But instead of raging over it I just stared at it.  Then I realised I had a headache.  Then I realised some more that I was very hungry.  Then I got angry.  I was wide awake after a couple or so hours sleep.  Thank you brain for not letting me sleep after being woken up.  While trying to somehow get back to sleep it just wouldnt shut up.  Kept recalling things that annoyed me, like how I lost my job a while back, how I had to reschedule my cats vet appointment yesterday since the vet I see left early for the day for some reason or other.  And a bunch of other things.  I'm usually a positive happy person, but now and then my brain just pauses to rage at something for a few minutes.  And then it thinks about the amount of shit I do for people, help them out, buy them etc, yet wheres all the goodness coming back?  Its probably coming back, just not towards my central area.  Makes you think sometimes why you shouldnt just focus on yourself and noone else.  Lord knows  I'd have a shitload more money if I did that.  But then I realise no, its just not in me to not do nice things for others.  So despite getting raped on a frequent basis, I still find some enjoyment in doing something for someone else.  REAL FUCKING PRODUCTIVE THAT!

So its 9 am.  I'm wide awake after a ponsy amount of sleep, and my brains considering what I'll be doing today.  Vet appointment at 3:30 is really the only big thing.  Make a couple phone calls to places for my parents to tie up some things.  The rest of the day? I really feel like just wasting it and sitting here playing games all day.  I probably should go to the store and check out that chair I was interested in.  But then I think its probably worth $800 or some STUPID amount so I cant consider it at the moment, what with not having a job.  But while there I could check for a couple vacuums I'm interested in for my mum.  So this means getting up and leaving my comfortable room.  On the way back I'd probably head to the PC store which is owned by a previous boss of mine.  He always enjoys it when I visit.  I hardly do it since I'm fairly slack.  Worse part is he's only down the road.  I should go visit him.  But I need to tidy up my bookshelf too so I can move a few things around.  I like being orderly and neat.  If you spend like 5min a week just tidying up a little, you'll spare yourself a few hours of cleaning and sorting months down the track.  Plus your room doesnt end up looking shit and forcing you into actually doing some cleanup work.  And I still need to edit my holiday videos from back in october to upload some of it onto youtube.  Useless is what I am.

Best way to cheer myself up is to buy something.  Clothes shopping is also a massive joy.  IF theres ever anything to buy.  Damn stores are like 10 female clothing shops, 2 guy shops, and the girls shop at the guys shops anyway so thats like 12- 2.  Ripped off.  Which means internet shopping instead.  At least I have a few places I know and like.

Anyway heres an oooold picture from 7 years back of me and my friend sitting in an airport terminal at 4am waiting for a connecting flight.  This is the first time I'd been on a plane again and traveled out of my city since...hmm..prolly 1984.  So 19 years.  Suffice to say I was a little twitchy about it lol.  Digital cameras were also a bit shit back then.

Sleep? Whats sleep..

Yeah, my month long sleep deprivation is still going.  Nothing more furstrating then rolling around in bed for 4-5 hours before realising you're getting nowhere.  Sooner or later I'll snap out of it.  Happens at least once a year lol

Was meant to take my cat in for a follow up to the vet today.  Cancelled though and schedualed it for tomorrow.  His wound is healing but amazingly slow, and I think he's started to scratch at it again.  For the moment its ok, and if he gets those awesome injections tomorrow it'll stop him from scratching it for a while more.  Sadly thats another $150 I dont have that I'll need to spend.  I love not working..

Vacuum decided to go stupid today.  The hose attachment connecting to the vacuum keeps falling out, so thats counter productive when you're trying to do your business.  I was thinking of grabbing one of those robotic ones since I dont like my mum pulling around heavy vacuums.  But those bastard things cost so much.  The one I've got my eye on is the Roomba 530.  That thing goes for like $600 here.  If I was working I wouldnt care, but I'm not.  We need to get a new one though.  And I really dont want to buy a generic one.  Need something thats good to pick up cat hair from the carpet.  So you know what that means right?  Yeah, I'll probably have to buy this thing.  Why not buy a normal one and do it yourself instead of letting your mum do it, I hear you ask.  Good question.  Its because my mum cant sit still.  By the time I've woken up, this saying when my sleeping scheduals arent RETARDED like now, she's already finished vacuuming.  And when I get a job in the HOPEFULLY foreseeable future, she'll be doing it anyway.  The joy.

Playing a really fun game on my iphone called Dungeon Hunter.  Its pretty much diablo style.  I probably shouldnt be though since my console and PC games have piled up to stupid levels.  What can you do..  Heres a picture of me during simpler happy times.  Its animated so click on the picture to load it up.  This awesome site cant seem to handle animated pics.

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Well my sleeping patterns are royally screwed now.  Going to sleep around 11am, waking up at 7pm, and doing nothing.  Gotta fix this.  Missing the day isnt helping when I have stuff I need to do.   At least my cat seems to be doing a lot better.  His injury hasnt started healing yet but he's no longer scratching at it, at least not that I can tell.

Aside from that there really isnt much else.  Playing away on GT5 and a couple games on my iphone. That thing really has a huge number of awesome games.  Some sexy rpgs too.

I guess the biggest thing at the moment is remembering that people get people gifts on christmas.  I end up buying stuff for people all through the year and totally forget about gifts at christmas since I get so many.  I remembered I hadnt gotten my cousins kid a present for a while now.  He's like 10 or something. Amazing kid, smart as fuck and cheeky too.  Like I rang my cousin today to ask if they'd gotten him a Kinect yet for the xbox, or if anyone else has gotten one.  Pretty sure noone has because everyones a cheap bastard.  And I love getting presents that are considered super awesome by the person.  The kid will freak out if he opens it up and finds a kinect pack with 2 games.  His parents will have heaps of fun too since I enjoyed messing with it over my friends place and my cousin is on the same wavelength as me.  Hopefully he'll get back to me and say he doesnt own one yet, otherwise I dont know wtf I'll get him.

Anyway, so the kid picks up the phone and I'm like hello its Con.  And he goes....this isnt your number.  It wasnt, I hadnt given them my new number yet.  But this little guy spotted it straight away.  Normally response would be like HIIIIII.

Anyway, heres a picture.  My cousin took a picture of me while  I wasnt paying attention.  Silly bimbo.  But I like to think the photos you dont expect are generally the better ones.  They capture so much more instead of a fake smile.  You're just being you in them.  I dont even remember wtf I was looking at.  I was tired though lol

argh

Well took my cat to the vet today because he REFUSED to stop scratching the area he butchered a couple days ago.  All his other problems from the fight are pretty much heaps better.  If only the cut that got infected had been on the other side of his head, then he'd probably scratch the left side of his neck or not at all.  Always a problem with the right side.  Doesnt he fucking know the vet cant stitch that area anymore because its too tight from previous fixing.  Nothing but stress when he gets injured.  Its almost lunch time and I havent slept yet because I stayed up making sure he didnt scratch it any more till I could take him to the vet this morning.  $150 vet trip.  And going back wednesday as a follow up so easily another $100.  Hopefully he heals well and doesnt end up costing me more with another operation.  He should be ok though.

As much as I love that cat its just starting to really get old.   None of my friends cats ever seem to get injured enough to be taken to the vet.  One friends had his cat for like 10 years now and only gone to the vet twice.  Me?  This bastard has almost yearly trips.  Even the vet is stunned.  How can a cat thats so large, so strong, and so lucky with past injuries, still manage to get the smallest of scratches from fights infected.  I've probably spent $5000 on vet bills over the last 15 years.  Probably more.  I'll still keep spending each time he gets sick but seriously why the hell does he get sick more then other cats.  Bloody mystery.   Dunno if I'll get another pet after he passes away.  So much stress with this one.  He could at least get injured when I'm working and have money to pay for it.  Having lost my job a while back, this is really not the time I would of picked if I was a retarded cat with a stupid mental issue.

Well Gran Turismo 5 has started to really piss me off too.  I'm pretty well into it and all races seem to be against super cars who NEVER spin out, take every turn well, and any chance they get to ram me they do it.  They ram me with so much passion that they smash me off the track into a spinning mess.  Worst fucking AI in any car game.  Which makes it all the more frustrating because its the best handling car game out.  Will keep soldiering on amidst curses.


Well since my brain is sleep deprived I'm going to end it here because its thinking of 100 things and wants to talk about all those 100 things and that would just be wrong.  Heres a picture of my grandma instead.

Not much

Pretty much not much.  My day was basically Gran Turismo 5, bunch of episodes of Glee and Dexter since I was behind in those, and stressing over my moron cat.  He went and did what I hoped he wouldnt, which was scratch at the side of his neck.  He's had a couple surgerys there in the past so his skin is not too loose.  Which means further surgery there at some stage would be a real bad idea.  So now he's gone and scratched away that area raw.  I dunno if the infection above it made him subconciously just tear away at it or if he was trying to claw away matted fur, but either way he's gone and done it.  I'm hoping he'll not fuck with it too much and it'll heal.  I'll know in a couple days or so.  If he's still fucking with it I'll take him to the vet on monday.  Just dont want to move him around since his legs are still sore and picking him up to put him in his carry case could earn me some new scars.

I'm pondering buying myself a new chair.  My current one has sort of pissed me off over the years but I never found one I was happy with.  I did  try out one last weekend that I liked but I didnt focus too much on it at the time nor check the price.  I'm thinking this weekend I'll go take a better look at it and if the price isnt some spaz amount I'll grab it.

So finally sent off about 100 photos to get printed.  I was pretty amazed to see it'll only cost me like $11.  I remember back during the days of FILM when you'd take them in to get developed.  Memory being dodgy like it is, I THINK each print cost something like $1-$2 or so.  A simple roll of 24 would end up costing $20-30 or something.  I'm curious to see how they'll turn out.  I know plenty of people who hate having their photo taken and go through their lives capturing maybe 1 photo of themselves every 5-10 years.  Now days I guess its different what with things like facebook and phones having cameras.  People just go stupid taking any old photo.  Which is good.    Make sure you never lose them.

Another very annoying thing, today I've felt like theres something missing.  Somethings empty.  And I cant put my damn finger on it.  Needless to say I never experience this sort of crap since I'm perfectly happy.  So wtf?  Its really annoying me.

Heres a picture of me and my grandfather when I visited him in greece.  He's got a sense of humour lolol

We cant stop here. This is bat country

So today I found out my damn pc decided to screw with me.  I loaded up L4D to see if it still worked and found out my microphone wasnt working.  ODD I thought since it worked the last time I loaded it up, which was months ago.  Tried to fix it, even installed new drivers, nothing.  Its like the pc is just ignoring me.  Not sure what to do but for now I'm totally ignoring it since it gave me a headache.

My cats healing slowly.  A little too slowly.  Today his wound infront of his ear was really dry and all closed up and no sign of swelling at all.  I figured the worst was over.  Then he goes and scratches it open, just a little bit.  Theres still some puss seeping out so its not totally healed yet.  I'm wiping away at it whenever I see any seeping out.   Starting to really bother me now that its not healed after almost a week..  He's walking a little better now but his back legs are still a bit sore.  You can tell everytime he tries to stand up.  He's very slow.  Whatever that fight he had last week it must of been a massive one.  Never seen him so bruised.  Hopefully he gets better quiclky soon.

I was going through my pc and trying to find a bunch of photos I'd taken over the years that I wanted printed out.  Over 100 so far and I'm being choosy.  Cheapest way is to upload them through th enet to a store and have them print them out.  But we're talking 300megs upload.  I'm sure their servers can handle it considering the amount of people that send pictures in.  Sadly I'll have to wait about 2+ weeks for them to print them, mail them, and reach my house.  Pretty frustrating.   Heres one of the pics.  Me with Gamera while in japan.  The sign on the front says PLEASE DO NOT TOUCH THIS GAMERA.

Useless world

Well good and bad crap.  Good crap is it looks like my cat should be ok.  One of the cuts infront of his ear did get infected and swelled up a little, but luckily some of th epuss trickled out a couple times and relieved it, allowing me to wipe it away and put some more dissinfectant there.  So that part looks great.  He still has a sore front and back leg.  He walks around ok but you can see its hurting him.  Hopefully he'll be better tomorrow.  We've locked him inside during the evens so he doesnt get into any fights while healing.  He's not happy about it but he's not strong enough to destroy parts of the house to make you let him out.

Bad news for me at least was I finally got chosen to attend jury duty.  They called my name out in court and I cried a little inside.  So I'm doing this for the next week.  Just wish they had a damn couch in the jury room so I could sprawl out on while playing some rpgs on my iphone.  Oh well.

I finally finished that photo edit I was working on the past few days of a friends picture I mentioned a while back.  Its been in his wallet for the last 18+ years and it got seriously raped.  So heres my attempt at fixing it. I'm no pro at photoshop, I'm kinda suckish, but I tried pretty hard with it. I'm not 100% happy with the end product but considering what I had to work with I think I did ok.  Will be sending it via phone to friend tomorrow so he can have a look at it.  If he's happy I'll have it printed out. 

Sunday

Well not much happened today.  Decided Walking Dead just isnt interesting anymore so I'm bored of it.   

My poor cat spent the entire day inside just sleeping in my parents room.  He must be in pain to not want to move.  Problem is he's still in there and its 4am.  I'm worried he might need to go do special time but cant because my parents door is closed.  They've got the aircondition on you see.  I'm still super worried over him and hope he'll feel better soon and not get any worse.

I've been fairly slack lately in doing a few things.  Like uploading my videos from october since I have to cut them and then merge them and I'm seriously a massive slacker at heart.  Another thing I need to do is I promised a friend of mine I'd try and photoshop an old picture of him and his girlfriend from like 17 years ago and make it nicer.  Its like old, he's had it in his wallet all these years and theres creases and dirt smudges and all sorts of crap.  So I scanned it in and said I'd see what I could do.  I'm no magician at photoshop or anything but I've done some old photos before, like ones my parents had from the 60s and other ones that were so old that the colour was almost washed out, and I made them look good again.  Sometimes I fluke it so I'm worried I may have promised something I cant deliver, but I'm going to totally give it a shot anyway because thats what friends do.  Just hope I dont disappoint him if I cant get it just right.  If I'm happy with the outcome I'll post up the pics here of a before and after.  If I'm disgusted with it I'll pretend I never mentioned it lol

In the meantime heres a random picture I took while in greece from the balcony of my cousins cafe.  I stiched the pictures together to make a panoramic thingie.  As always click on it for a larger version.

Frustrating

Well today was going well.  Finally watched Inception.  Enjoyable film.  Not sure why people were confused my the ending, it was straight forward.  I was also pondering how well my finances were to grab a new 3D tv for my room.  Needless to say since I'm NOT working they arent too good.  If I got a job in the next couple months then I could buy one now and be ok.  But then I got home and find my cat has gotten into a fight.

He's got a couple scratches next to his ear, one on his cheek, another on his chest, and one of his nails have been half ripped out so its poking it a different direction.  He'll get rid of that in the next day or so since its happened before and he always deals with it quickly.  My problem now is waiting to see if any of the cuts become infected.  I Should know in a week or so.  Its pretty much 50/50.  If it does happen then theres a few hundred dollars gone on the vet again.  I say again because he's had cuts become infected in the past.  A couple times really nasty infections.  One of the really bad ones was on his other cheek so I'm pretty paranoid as you may have noticed.

So yeah, I'm going to be in a state of  stress until I know whether he'll be fine or not.    Why the hell cant he be like other cats.  I've got friends who have cats who never get into fights.  Like ever.  And the very few times it happens they never get infectioned wounds.  My one though, I've spent thousands on him at the vet.  Worst one was when I had to spend about $1200.   Its not the money that bugs me.  Its him getting hurt.  That $1200 one his cheek got infected which seeped in to his gums and infected more there.  Doctor had to remove his back teeth during the operation and said theres a chance he could develop cancer from it so I should think twice before spending that much money.  I dont think he liked the look I gave him when he said that.    I dont give a shit how much I spend, I just want him healthy.  Thankfully he never developed cancer which surprised the vet.  And I must state the vet is top grade too which is why I go to him.

He's a very lucky cat though.  Sure he's had a few infections over time but during all that he should of lost one ear, his tail, and developed cancer.  Never happened.  Especially the tail when he broke it long ago.  Usually the tail breaks and it just hangs limply and not often heals again, so you have to get it removed.  His healed after a month which again surprised the vets.  I spoil him rotten and I think my brain will just shut down when he does actually die, but for now he's still very strong and amazing and I never enjoy seeing him hurt.   But yeah, positive thoughts.

Zero

Pretty much little I can share.  Bought a few bluray films I've been wanting for ages.  One was Edward Scissorhands, one of the best movies ever.  Only reason I never got it up to now was to see if they were planning to release a newer better version since the original has a few little issues.  Thats not happening and since its the best version around I might as well grab it.   Still have a few more to get at some stage.  Phantom of the Opera is one.  I really enjoyed that film lots.  But whenever I watch it now I'll always see Leonidis as the phantom lolol

Friend came over yesterday who I hadnt seen in almost a year.  Went to school with him so known him for over 20 years now.  Was pretty entertaining talking about how things were back then with friends and other crap.  He even mentioned a few names of people I'd totally forgotten, and some I just barely remember.  Hearing about old girlfriends and other girls we were interested in, that was probably the most entertaining part.  Although I was still the one of all my friends who had the highest rate of rejecting the most girls.  I'll admit I took a slight enjoyment out of doing that which is why I did it so often.  Mainly towards the pretty semi stuck up ones.  They were the ones who always expected things to go their way because they were 'hot'.  I always enjoyed taking them down a peg or two because it infuriated them.

He was also floored when he found out I'd never gotten into a fight ever.  He'd be like wtf dude I know you're a good fighter, how can you never have gotten into one? (martial arts etc)..  Well I rarely pissed people off.  Everyone seemed to like me well enough.  And the very few times I almost got into a fight I managed to always talk my way out of it.  I was never FORCED into a fight.  If I saw a way out of one I usually did it because I wasnt interested in getting into fights. I do have a couple funny stories of ways I got out of some.  Although one I'll never forget. 

We were on a class excursion, I was like 18 I think.  While at the place one of the taller slightly larger guys comes up to me and is all 'Hey I hear you can kick.  Show me a kick'.  I'm all wtf sorry not interested.  So he starts badgering me, telling me to show him a kick or he'll show me his fist.  I pretty much refused to break his stare and told him, seriously get lost I aint interested in starting crap with you.  After a couple more verbal challenges from him I just turned my back and walked away to the other side of the area where a couple of my friends were just staring at me wide eyed.  I asked them what their problem was and they said the guy was suchandsuch.  I pretty much went white.  I knew the name but never met the guy before even though he was in my damn class.  He was pretty much one of the best fighters around, went in interstate championships etc.  I realised I could of been dead if I had a cocky personality.  The next day he came up to me and said I must be pretty good not to be intimidated by him and we became friends.  If only he knew I didnt know who he was or I would of probably shit myself then and there haha.

The biggest thing that surprised me that I never noticed or paid attention to back then was peoples sexual preferences.  Like friend would mention the name of a guy we knew and be all like Hey did you think he was gay?  And I'd be naaah....wait..  And then I realised the way he acted and other little things, he could of easily been bisexual, since he went out with girls too.  The more I think about it the more I'm convinced he was.  Same goes for girls.  I've noticed theres a STACK more girls today who are happily bisexual and molest their friends often in public.  Especially under the age of 20-22 area.  And friend mentioned about this or that girl who actually did do things with other girls we knew in private.  So that floored me since it never came into my head.  Girls are girls, just not as private as before.  There really is hardly any difference between how teenagers act and what they do now as there was when I was 18.  Its not surprise to me, but if I was 18 and saw someone who was 35 I'd think they spent their childhood in the farms because there werent any electricity back then etcetcetc.  You know what I mean.

I'd put up a picture of something to do with me back in highschool, but I think all those pictures are in my parents room and right now they're sleeping lol.  So heres a picture of me when I was 7 next to a picture of my grandmother.  Its my favourite picture of me as a kid and I gave it to my grandmother when I was visiting her last year, first time I'd seen her in over 25 years.  The next morning I found she'd gotten it framed and placed it beside her own portrait which was pretty cool.  Incidentally I'm her favourite.  Not hard to believe is it lolol