Not the best

Today was just begging for it.  I went to bed around 2am feeling super duper tired which is rare, but I really dont know if I slept much.  I writhed and rolled about, body ignoring the fact that I was actually tired to begin with.  I think I might of gotten an hour sleep.  I say might because I was fully awake at 6am, and I had a dream, so you only really have a dream if you're sleeping.  And the dream was just..argh... I love nightmares right, I mean REALLY love them.  But this dream was like a wannabe nightmare.  It kept trying to be scary and it just wasnt, it was just totally stupid.  In my dream I actually got annoyed.  I got annoyed at MY dream while IN the dream because it was doing such a shit job at trying to scare me.  I woke up feeling annoyed.

Cancelled my cats vet trip.  His injury is heaps better and at the moment since I'm not working I cant really justify a third $150 trip.  I really cant.  My supplies are getting low and I think I'll have to start applying for jobs very soon.  At least my cats gettng heaps better.

Unfortunately I'm going to have to end this on a sad note.  I found out today that my grandfather died yesterday.  He was 84.  He'd also gone through 3 strokes and was pretty sick lately, so I'd already prepared myself.  Not many people can go through 3 strokes and still be able to walk.  He was tough as nails.  And I'm just really happy that I got to meet him last year when I visited greece after 25 years absence.  I spent plenty of time with him,listening to his stories and just joking around.  My grandmother said after I left he stopped joking around and just sat there quietly most of the days. My mum was planning to visit next year and I was thinking about going too.  I was hoping he'd make one more year.   I'll really miss him.