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Thursday, December 23, 2010

Not the best

Today was just begging for it.  I went to bed around 2am feeling super duper tired which is rare, but I really dont know if I slept much.  I writhed and rolled about, body ignoring the fact that I was actually tired to begin with.  I think I might of gotten an hour sleep.  I say might because I was fully awake at 6am, and I had a dream, so you only really have a dream if you're sleeping.  And the dream was just..argh... I love nightmares right, I mean REALLY love them.  But this dream was like a wannabe nightmare.  It kept trying to be scary and it just wasnt, it was just totally stupid.  In my dream I actually got annoyed.  I got annoyed at MY dream while IN the dream because it was doing such a shit job at trying to scare me.  I woke up feeling annoyed.

Cancelled my cats vet trip.  His injury is heaps better and at the moment since I'm not working I cant really justify a third $150 trip.  I really cant.  My supplies are getting low and I think I'll have to start applying for jobs very soon.  At least my cats gettng heaps better.

Unfortunately I'm going to have to end this on a sad note.  I found out today that my grandfather died yesterday.  He was 84.  He'd also gone through 3 strokes and was pretty sick lately, so I'd already prepared myself.  Not many people can go through 3 strokes and still be able to walk.  He was tough as nails.  And I'm just really happy that I got to meet him last year when I visited greece after 25 years absence.  I spent plenty of time with him,listening to his stories and just joking around.  My grandmother said after I left he stopped joking around and just sat there quietly most of the days. My mum was planning to visit next year and I was thinking about going too.  I was hoping he'd make one more year.   I'll really miss him.



10 comments:

  1. i feel sorry for you con my grandad past away a couple of years ago by cancer so i may knw your pain

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  2. Awww I'm so sorry to hear D: Please accept my heartfelt sympathy on the passing of your grandfather.

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  3. Sad to hear about your Grandfather passed away. You're lucky though that you had a grandfather at the age of 35. My grandfather died of cancer when I was 11. I still miss him lots.

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  4. I'm sorry for your loss, my grandma's in and out of hospital with seizures every month it feels now, looks like she might be going the same way. sorry again.

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  5. i feel sorry for you con.

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  6. Sorry for your loss

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  7. I'm sorry for your loss Con.

    I honestly can't imagine losing my grandparents... they have been with me for so much. They even took me in when I was in foster care.

    I hope you are feeling okay...

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  8. So sorry to hear about your Grandfather, Con. I know how you feel, my Great Grandmother died a couple of months ago.

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  9. At least you two had a good time together while you were there. I'm sure that was a really big highlight for him.

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  10. I one really miss my grandfather he never made it to meet me ... , my grandmother has mental illness and she is more or less retarted , some times she really knows what she's doing sometimes she does not even move she stays just watching a wall for hoers and hoers that's sad but believe me i know that you cant have something like a grandfather 2 times in a life time , somebody who has lived , has life experience that is smart , that can be make you laugh much better than a comedian , that can make your parents shut up , somebody so old but yet so young , somebody you love and you enjoy spending time with. Well i hope he will rest in peace and remember , he is still alive in your heart and memories.

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